花花世界

in this world..
where everything seems so disillusioned..
by appearance..
by impression..
by judgement..
by the price, by the worthiness, by weighing the advatanges over the disadvantages..

we all are attracted to newer things, to shinier things, to prettier things.
and we cannot blame kids for having such a short attention span because we humans have slowly evolved into such a creature.

earth rotates at contant speed for millions billion trillions years, but the processes/activities on earth have sped up by many many times over these years of changes. we have more time to do more things, but we are left with very little time to think and to feel for ourselves and others.

i always feel that i don't belong to this era. coz i always couldn't keep up.
for those who know me, im such a lousy runner. i can never move as fast as the rest.
im always very good at the start, but i do not have the determination and stamina to last the entire marathon. it becomes tired, especially when i feel im the only one left behind.

from sec 1 till now it's already 10 years.
i see many many changes over these 10 years.
changes in the surrounding.
changes in people.
changes in the roles we play everyday.
changes in the ability of ourselves.

i wonder if i've changed.
i think i asked myself this before.
but this question still pops out.

ppl always say when one goes out to work, he or she will change.
is it the people whom you work with cause this change?
is it the money you've earn cause this change?
is it the lifestyle you lead cause this change?
is it when everyone else work, and u don't, u are the only one left unchanged?

i always have to constantly remind myself (or have someone else to remind me) not to be affected by the world i'm in.
it's difficult to not fit in.
it has always felt more comfortable to have ppl having similarities as u.
when everyone is normal, odd one out is abnormal.
when everyone is abnormal, do you think the odd one out is normal?

joshua ytd said some which i think is really nice.
we might not have material stuff which others have, but we have good heart.

i have to remind myself.
what i have.

iloveyou

Hate That I Love You lyrics
Songwriters: Smith, Schaffer; Eriksen, Mikkel; Hermansen, Tor Erik;

That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you
And I can't stand ya
Most everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like it for a while?

No, but you won't let me
You upset me, girl, and then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget that I was upset
Can't remember what you did

But I hate it
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long, that's wrong

But, I hate it
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't wanna fuss and fight no more
Said, I despise that I adore you

And I hate how much I love you, boy
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you, boy
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so

And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
Sad and it's not fair how you take advantage of the fact
That I love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right

And I hate how much I love you, girl
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you, girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so

One of these days, maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me, yay

That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you
That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate how much I love you, boy
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you, girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so
And I hate that I love you so, so

阿妹 - 掉了

心疼的玫瑰
半夜还开著
找不到匆匆掉落的花蕊
回到现场却已来不及
等待任何回音都不可得
微弱的风筝
冬天里飘著
回不去手中缠线的那个
没有蓝天
又何必去飞
怎么适合

黑色笑靥掉了
雪白眼泪掉了
该出现的所有表情瞬间掉了
瞳孔没有颜色
结了冰的长河
回忆是最可怕的敌人

故事情节掉了
主角对白掉了
该属于剧中的对脚戏也掉了
胸口没有快乐
断了翅的白鸽
不枯萎的藉口全掉了

曾经唱过的歌
分享过的笑声
在心中不断拉扯
想念不能承认
偷偷擦去泪痕
冬天过了还是会很冷

ktv 热门点播

张惠妹 - 真实

你说的话在我心中生了根
爱得很深所以心很疼
记忆在我的心中翻滚
是不是每一个人
都像我一样笨
只怕再问对彼此都太残忍
我能感觉另外一个人
我等等笑容换成泪痕
爱在崩溃的时候比较真
太多疑问知道答案又如何
原来容忍不需要天份
只要爱错一个人
心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子
太多疑问知道答案又如何
原来容忍不需要天份
只要爱错一个人
心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子


i duno why i always sing this song in ktv.
mayb coz it's by amei.
oh. and the mv attracted me.


songs.
very often the poetry of life.
they carried so much emotion.
so much so that it can bring tears when listen to them.

when life is in a mess. who do u turn to?
will there always be someone to hear you out?
i turn to songs.
coz they make me feel that, there's actually "someone" who felt the same too.

need some support

i need some encouragement.. to have ppl tell me
"yes i understand what u're going through"

i noe is myself 孩子气..
shouldn't feel sian abt it.

perhaps is my own act.
i tend to take everything and carry on my own shoulder.
den to feel no one else is helping out.
wat a noob.

i duno what to do now..




With the kind of pressure that exists regarding work for you, Scorpio, there is a good chance that you may be losing faith in an ultimate good to be gained from your experience. This is not uncommon in times like these, but being discouraged is often a surefire sign that help is just around the corner. No matter what the difficulties are that you are facing right now, there is an astrological condition that has shown, since the beginning of the fortnight, that you are blessed with special protection now. Hope is the on-ramp of the road to victory.

i feel how i feel

You may experience forgiveness, or you may give someone else a second chance, but either way, you'll have a personal experience with closing the door on the past. All you have to do is to be willing to accept change, and let go of whatever is holding you back. Be careful not to hold on to any grudges, and make sure you don't reference your present situation to the worst of the past. Find the meaning in past problems and move on, because this is a day of hope and encouragement for you.

i always cannot figure out how come horoscope can actually translate what im feeling, into the exact words of how i feel. so much so that i always cannot not believe in it.

meaning all the scorpio feels the same?

quotes

from an email..


the paradox of our time in history is that
we have taller buildings but shorter tempers;
wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints;
we spend more, but have less;
we buy more, but enjoy less;
we have bigger houses and smaller families;
more conveniences, but lesser time;
we have more degrees, but less sense;
more knowledge. but less judgement;
more experts yet more problems;
more medicine, but less wellness.

we drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly,
laugh too little, drive to fast, get too angry, stay up too late,
get up too tired, read too little, watch tv too much.

we have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values;
we talk too much, love too seldom, hate too often.

we've learned how to make a living, but not a life;
we've added years to life not life to years;
we've been all the way to the moon and back but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbour;
we conquered outer space but not inner space;
we've done larger things, but not better thing.

we've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul;
we've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice;
we write more, but learn less;
we plan more but accomplish less;
we've learned to rush, but not to wait;
we build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less.

these are the times of fast foods, and slow digestion;
big men and small character;
steep profits and shallow relationships.

these are the days of 2 incomes but more divorce;
fancier houses, but broken homes;

these are the days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills tat do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.




Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

myself

i have a lot of thoughts about myself recently..
about my life.
about ppl around me.
about my future.
about my present.
about my past.

i should do self reflection more
so that i learn more about myself
bcoz only that i can understand others more?

sometimes i feel my thoughts don't stay in my head
after i think about them, they just slipped away.
mayb i should pen them down here.
but again, i don't look back to my previous posts often.

how?